Its 1:04 am here…and for some reason I just randomly woke up from my slumber thinking about this gif. Telling you how much I love it would be an understatement. The more I think about it the more it reminds me that 2009 is almost over (9 weeks left to be exact) and I start to think about what I could of done differently to further pursue my goals. The answer is…A LOT lol…I could of done a lot of things differently, however I have no one to blame but myself. For some reason I was cursed with the emotion of caring what people think. I have since gotten better at not doing so, especially with some unpopular decisions I have made this year (I may divulge that information one of these days). I made those decisions because it was what made me happy…I wasn’t living someone else’s dream, I wasn’t doing what was ‘politically correct’ for someone my age, heck I wasn’t even doing what would be considered the ’smart’ thing to do, but I did it because I felt like it…and that’s one of the few times I can actually say that I ever did anything for me. Like Shanel Cooper-Sykes says, “When we bury our gifts and forget they exist—or know they exist but don’t use them—our punishment is unhappiness, anxiety, and frustration in life; feelings of unworthiness, sadness; and loss of fire. I’m starting to get the attitude of – F the rest. Like the gif, I’m starting to make my own way through life, pursuing and doing what I love and have a passion for. I’m starting to walk with a pep in my step with a gratitude so big even the ‘haters’ would have to appreciate it.
This may be a little early to say, but I feel that will be my M.O. for 2010 – Gratitude. I truly believe that “negativity can not exist in a body that is filled with gratitude.” For the rest of this year leading into the next, I want every ounce of my being to exude positivity and gratitude. I want to walk with a genuine smile plastered on my face that will spread like the plague to anyone I come in contact with. If negativity can spread like wild fires then positivity should move at the speed of light. So in honor of my new gratitude this gif and this post will be the last time I use the word ‘hater’. To me, its a word downing the people who are letting you know that you are doing something right…who are affirming that you are destined for greatness. Maybe I should just call them ‘affirmers’ from now on.
Anywho…I’ve done enough typing. My spirit is at rest now…I think I just needed to release these feelings I’ve been harboring for a minute. Thanks for reading, oh and HAPPY SUNDAY!
Kieran
